Always looking for you

I can't find you Father please help me Holy ghost of Jesus Christ (and latter day Saints) I haven't felt this bad in so long. Every stupid little thing pisses me off an unreasonable amount. Seeing a dead crow on the sidewalk, 4 days in a row. Seeing a dead cat on the side of the road, 3 days in a row. I can't stop thinking of you, and you're no one to me now. We've been done, right? Nothing. Nothing to see here. No utter devastation. No crime scene, no wreckage. I am really fucking good at being delusional at being in denial at telling myself I don't still love you.