The closest yet

I keep thinking of your smile.

It's the prettiest smile I think I have ever seen.

I was so flooded with serotonin and endorphins as soon as we started talking to each other.

I found myself thinking of all the things I wanted to do in life again.

I found myself picturing the time we could share in the future.

You know how reality is often so very far removed from our dreams?
I don't want this to be like that.

I mean, it feels different. I feel different. In my infatuation I might make claims I can't fulfill. I would tell myself things like: I'll move heaven & Earth to be there for you, to provide for you, to make sure you're happy.

All fear subsides, and suddenly I am capable of seeing things in a new light.

I know I'm getting ahead of myself, and I should stop myself from getting carried away.

How can I claim to love her when I've known her for such a short period of time?

How can I hope for her to love me when she knows practically nothing of me or of my troubles & faults?

Everything tells me to ground myself this time so that love's electrical current doesn't burn through my heart this time.

Even with the risk, I can't stop myself from tumbling head over heels for you.

I want to be so much better at everything in my life, and I want to show you how good I am.

I hope I can start to be
starting now.


"When you feel embarrassed then I'll be your pride
When you need directions then I'll be the guide
For all time

For all time"